This morning I awoke with the realization that the reason I felt so defensive was that there was some measure of truth in what had been said. And while I didn't feel I was "as guilty" as accused, I was still guilty in thought if not deed. So, I'll pray about this today and ask for forgiveness for my sin as well as the ability to stop wallowing in self-pity (everyone picks on me, right?). Ick. This isn't easy. But if I want to stop the tape playing in my brain, it's the first step.